The Fantasy of Best


“This has been a terribly difficult season.”  

My wife and I have found ourselves saying something similar to this over the last few months.  It would seem that everything was crumbling around us, or at the very least a tough hill to climb.  Nothing was working the way that we had planned. 

One thing; after another thing; after another thing.  It was becoming an epidemic! 

Honestly, we felt that it was the truest “wilderness season” that either of us had ever been in, and the Promise Land felt more like a dream than a future reality.  These types of seasons must be walked through with prayer, patience and hope-those really hard seasons of loss and pain.  

But what about the mundane seasons where you just want to be somewhere else? 

I seem to keep myself in these types of seasons because I can’t ever seem to live in the present.  There is always a better, and where there is a better there must be a best.  The problem is that the best is always just out of reach.  Since there is always somewhere better than I find myself, I am never satisfied with the now. This makes my now feel uneventful and sub-par. 

But it’s all a fantasy. 

I don’t know if anything is actually better than where I am now because I haven’t taken the time to evaluate it.  All I have is now, yet I never actually take the time to experience it fully. I don’t actually know if the best over there is better than now because I can’t experience it, although I convince myself it must be. This cycle can become very dangerous.

Israel fell into this cycle when they travelled through the wilderness.   They focused either on the not yet of the Promise Land, or the already past of Egypt.  In the book of Exodus, we read that Israel’s here was never enough.  Though they had been delivered from slavery, received food and water supernaturally, their clothing and shoes never weathered into rags, and most importantly, they were led by God every day, there was always a there that was better than here. Ultimately, they couldn’t see the things that God was doing and providing for them, and this kept them in the darkness of their own minds.

“The grass is always greener on the other side.”  But where is the other side?  Anywhere other than hereHere is the issue because it isn’t there.  Always dreaming about the there is a taxing investment.  Why not ask the question, “Where am I at now?”  This is the question I have to intentionally ask myself.  This is the question that grounds me to the present.  Where am I now in my career?  Where am I now in my marriage?  Where am I now in my spiritual journey with God?  The Lord rarely brings me to the there, but always brings me to the reality of the goodness of now.  

I encourage you to see where you are now.  Don’t focus on being there so much that you lose sight of your present Promise, because the True Promise over there is actually with you now.

Jake Edgeman